The good, the bad and the complex

UGH. This is my 2nd time typing this!! Damn you Blogger!!

Anyway, moving on...

Last week I was having horrible back pains. I went and saw the RE who told me that I had a giant complex cyst on my left ovary (which I thought was odd because the pain was on my right side.) They did some bloodwork and called me later in the afternoon. The RN told me she had good news and bad news... The bad news is I'm not pg, but the good news is that the cyst is a big ole complex corpus luteum cyst that means... (drumroll please) I ovulated!! Ta-da!! All on my own. I'm a big girl now! LOL I was so proud of my body for O'ing on it's own, I instantly thought back to when I announced to Mom that I got my period and all the neighborhood ladies and my aunts brought me presents and started calling me a "young lady" (The funny part of that story is that the presents were pads. Wrapped pads.) LOL I was mortified but so proud of myself, which is how I felt about that damn cyst and O'ing. The cyst is so large it was radiating to my right side and causing just the worst pain. Ouch! I was told that since I o'd on my own, I would be getting my period on my own too... Ooooh, dare to dream! My progesterone was a good level (11) and had I gotten pg I was told I would have sustained.

I'm not upset, I'm happy. Happy my body did something normal for a change. :)

In other news, Today is my birthday!! Whoo hooo!! I turned 35 today. Any day above ground is a good day, so I can't be upset. My honey got me a day at a spa and 3 dozen long stemmed roses. He wrote in the card "To my future baby's mama, love your future baby's daddy." How cute is that?! I love him so much. We just celebrated our 15th Anniversary. :) I'm so blessed to have such an understanding man.

I was going to post some pics after this of our vacation, but then that's when Blogger kicked me off so I won't risk it. lol

Talk soon!!

It's been longer than I thought!

I cannot believe how long it's been since my lazy ass came on to post! I'm so proud and happy for my formerly infertile friends who are soon to become mommies! (I say proud because after a while when one succeeds, its like we all helped!)

Not much is going on with me. I just finished a eound of Clomid and am in my 2ww period. As we all know, it's just hellish. I had taken the summer off because I was having some kind of medical problem (as usual) and I had to focus on that for a bit. Happily, all was well and so we started TTC again in September. :) I went back to basics and tried Clomid again. I felt like maybe we were pushing my body too hard with the injections because I kept being hyper stimulated. I had a giant juicy follie and went on vay-kay with that. I never saw the LH surge, but I was feel ICK! I felt like my actualy unterus and ovaries were sore...Anyone ever get that? Anyway, I'm ASSuming I did O because it just hurt so bad.

Went to the docs today for some really bad sciatica-like back pain thats been bothering me. I noticed I've been sleeping an awful lot and my breasts feel heavier than normal. Trying not to get our hopes up as we've been down that road before. Tomorrow having rouint bloodwork for my back pain and Doc threw in a QHCG.

Well, regardless of my results tomorrow, I have to say it's ok...Because I have hope in all of you ladies that are expecting!! You have given me hope and I thank you for that.

Until tomorrow....

Mish