I'm evil
I'm blogging from work because we have a "situation."
There is a girl in my office who is five months pregnant with her first. (Good for her really, God bless) BUT right now there is a circle that has formed around her with lot's of questions and "oooh's" and "ahhhhh's" and CUTE!! and UGH!
Why am I so evil? Why am I sitting in my cubicle with my back to everyone ignoring the comotion? Wouldn't I want people to be excited for me? I figured it was better to sit here and ignore than go over and be fake. You know? I hope she has a healthy baby, but I JUST DONT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT! I want to turn around and scream, "Go away!" but I decided instead to type.
I have to completely change my lifestyle and lose my mind daily. Waking up and facing the day has become a struggle for me all to just have one freakin baby and it seems that everyone in the universe can just pop em out like nothing. I'm so angry at myself for being so upset. I'm probably rambling again. I'm a terrible rambler when I get upset.
I better leave before satan and her minion come over and catch me blogging.
Mish
There is a girl in my office who is five months pregnant with her first. (Good for her really, God bless) BUT right now there is a circle that has formed around her with lot's of questions and "oooh's" and "ahhhhh's" and CUTE!! and UGH!
Why am I so evil? Why am I sitting in my cubicle with my back to everyone ignoring the comotion? Wouldn't I want people to be excited for me? I figured it was better to sit here and ignore than go over and be fake. You know? I hope she has a healthy baby, but I JUST DONT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT! I want to turn around and scream, "Go away!" but I decided instead to type.
I have to completely change my lifestyle and lose my mind daily. Waking up and facing the day has become a struggle for me all to just have one freakin baby and it seems that everyone in the universe can just pop em out like nothing. I'm so angry at myself for being so upset. I'm probably rambling again. I'm a terrible rambler when I get upset.
I better leave before satan and her minion come over and catch me blogging.
Mish
7 Comments:
I have a coworker who is 7 months pregnant, and although there is a cube wall between us, I still hear her talking about her pregnancy all the time. And then I have a woman in my vanpool who is about 2 months pregnant and she is complaining about being pregnant...to me! She knows I don't want to her complaints, but she just keeps going.
Anyway, I just wanted to write and tell you I understand your feelings. I don't want to feel this way, but I can't help it!
I'm glad blogging gave you a chance to vent a bit while everyone else was oohing and ahhhing. I was in a similar situation at work last year, where several of my colleagues got pregnant at once and spent the entire work day yapping about baby and maternity stuff. Fortunately, most of them are now on maternity leave, so I don't have to deal with it anymore, but those months at work were unbearable at times.
I know what you're feeling and just want to let you know that you are NOT evil (or, if you are, then you are in the company of many evil women). I'm sending a big virtual hug your way, in the hopes that it will provide some strength for you.
don't be angry at yourself. you are not evil!! give yourself permission to be pissed. it's not personal against that prego woman at your work, after all.
I work at a school with fertility drugs in the water. Of course, I bring my own bottled water from home. :) I have experienced in the past that often times women who live or work closely together cycles sync. I am hoping that my coworker's pregnancy hormones will rub off on me also!!! Otherwise. I would go crazy.
Sorry to hear about your co-worker, there is nothing more frustrating than fertile people when you aren't. If you are evil then I guess all us IF'ers are so that means you are part of a great group of people! :)
Take care
I hate being caught blogging, it sucks almost as bad as pregnant co-workers. They seem to be everywhere right now. Sometimes I'm thankful I sit in the basement with a 61yr old grump - he's not going to be coming in pregnant anytime soon.
You aren't evil, just human. Last year, when the woman who sits right outside my office told us she was pregnant, I burst into tears. at. work. Oh, and if I didn't blog at work, I don't think I'd blog at all. :-)
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